I've been dreading this day since I booked it. Unfortunatly Tino coudln't come along as most daddy's have to bring home the bacon. As I mentally prepared myself and her this morning..the whole ordeal when from bad to worse. When i arrived i was a bit of a "bitch" shall I say..not because I usually am that kind of person, but because i felt stressed and anxious. The lady at the desk was rushing me, Ottavia was screaming hungry ( I'm a planner and she wasn't ready to eat when we left so i had her bottle ready to feed her there) I dumped my entire wallet out..the lid for my bottle fell on the gross floor...whatever...she checked us in..had to get the baby naked in this freezing sketchy clinic.
The nurse called us, we weighed her, and she announced that she had a bit of a flat head on one side, which is no suprise to me, its already been discussed with our dr, its fine, not to worry...but she rubbed me the wrong way.
Now she was fed, but still naked and freezing and the nurse went on and on about breast feeding and why its the best..i finally interupted her in a stearn voice and said I don't need a lecture, i've been to consultants, dr's and surgeons and I"m doing the best I can do you really think i love taking 16 pills a day, pumping, nursing, washing, sterlizing and making bottles and breast milk??...so can we end this conversation???
Then we went through a questionaire and she asked me 7 times if i was depressed..I finally placed my hand on her leg and said....Elizabeth...you have asked me over and over, I have filled out the questionaire throughly, and truthfully, as you can see and as I've told you, i'm not suffering any sort of post pardum depression....(this is all while i'm standing bouncing my screaming baby).....I have told you 7 times that i feel great, I'm happy, everything is wonderfull at the fusco's....I know that they have to go through everything but she went on and on and on....as Ottavia is still crying..she asked if i needed some help about how to handle a colicky baby....so then i had to explain that she is not colicy at all, she's tired and freezing.........anyways.....
Then it was needle time, Ottavia cried so hard she barfed and was hyperventilating..then i walked out of the room with tears in my eyes and had to sit on the floor and console my baby because there were no seats left in the clinic..finished feeding her, got her dressed and we left........
So here we are now with a sleepy little babe....there's lots of snuggling happening around here........until next needle day..BOO
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